I’ve been in a funk lately. . . . .
– work has been stressful (and I am having a hard time finding the physical and mental energy to teach each day),
– I am dreading the onset of winter,
– the days are getting noticeably shorter,
– I want to move out of state,
– I hardly feel like I any extra time in my day,
– and I just feel blah!
I wish there was something I could do about it, but many of these things are out of my control. . . .
– it is only October and I still have a long ways to go until the end of the school year,
– I cannot change the season or the amount of daylight we have,
– it isn’t like I can move right now,
– I am trying very hard to give myself some “me” time in the evening,
– but I still just feel like I am going through the motions and am numb more or less of the time.
I know I should tell myself to suck it up and make the best of it, but honestly I’ve been doing that for so long, I’m exhausted. I am just ready to give up!
These are the things I have tried to do to lighten the stress load:
– run with a friend a few times a week,
– take high levels of Vitamin D (although I honestly do not feel like it is helping),
– make a point to keep up with my running and healthy eating regime (I know I would be worse off without them.),
– and vent to Craig (but try not to take my frustrations out on him).
I don’t write these things to have you take pity on me but to rather simply be real with y’all. I want to share the highs and lows and not make it seem like life is fine and dandy all the time.
I know we all have our stressors in life, and my stressors may be minor compared to someone else’s, but they still weigh heavy on my shoulders. 🙁
So let’s move on to something else before this entire post becomes an entire “debbie downer” post.
This morning, I got up and ran 6 miles at an easy 9 minutes/mile pace.
I’ve said before that this is a slower pace than what I thought I was running.
But this morning I couldn’t help but wonder if my pace would be faster if I could wait a couple of hours before heading out for my run in the morning. Then maybe my legs would have a chance to wake up a bit and the blood would start flowing a little more. I guess I’ll just have to wait until the summer to test that theory I guess.
I’m off to go on a walk with Craig while it is still light out.