Even though I just posted a blog post on 5 Ways to Stay Motivated During a Running Injury, the truth is that I have really been struggling these past couple of weeks with the fact I haven’t been able to run.
I want nothing more than to be able to wake up in the quiet, early hours of the day, pull my running clothes on as everyone else in the house is still sleeping, and pound the pavement as the sun starts to rise.
I miss feeling fit and in shape.
I miss the quite time to clear my head.
I miss my heart pounding, my chest rising and falling, and feeling exhausted after a hard workout.
I miss feeling awake and alive after a workout.
I miss the runner’s high.
I miss lifting weights and feeling strong.
I miss the hobby that makes me who I am.
After nearly 3 months of nearly no running due to a bum hip flexor tendon, it is becoming harder and harder to ‘keep my chin up.’ I am losing hope that I will ever be able to run again. (Of course I know this isn’t true because I am bound and determined to get to the bottom of this.) I mostly feel like I missed out on 3 solid months of training and 3 months where I could have gained more fitness to help me reach my big, dream goal of a sub-3 hour marathon. I also know my time is limited if we want to have more kids.
I’ve seen two physical therapists, two chiropractors, and a massage therapist. Most recently I’ve been seeing a chiropractor (who has done a lot more than your typical chiropractor), and he said that if my hip doesn’t improve soon with the work he’s done, then we’ll have to talk about getting a referral to a sports doctor for an MRI. Boo! This is not what I wanted to hear. He threw out two other options the hip injury could be: a hip labral tear or a sports hernia. Neither of us think it is a labral tear, but the sports hernia sounds slightly plausible after consulting Dr. Google.
It has been almost 3 months of dealing with this hip flexor issue, and it is getting harder and harder to stay positive about a timely recovery. I’m frustrated because I’ve taken 4+ weeks off of doing nothing and no progress was made. I’m frustrated because I have been doing my exercises, stretches, icing, and other prescribed activies at home with no results.
In some ways this time off has been good. I have been able to sleep more, go on more adventures with Cullen, and I now will be able to empathize with other injured runners better.
With time I know I will heal, but I hope it is sooner than later. I know many others of you have spent a longer period of time waiting to get back to running, so I know it could be worse. I am just hoping and praying I can get to the bottom of this soon because I want it more now than ever before!